Hoots.
My mid-year examinations are just barely one week away, and I'm only done with 30% of my revision.
My mood swings have been in full force ever since last night. Swaying emotions, coupled with mountain-high workloads, along with irritating people who expect me to be their servants.
My grandfather, being healthy in all his life, got a stroke somewhere in march. What used to be a symbol of strength and reseilience has now turned into a pessimistic and frail person, making do in surroundings that are not exactly the most pleasant for one.

Writing. Yep, it's been a hell long time since i ever ranted out my thoughts of my everyday life. It's difficult to even, may I say, be myself in my school(other than during my cca), as I am unsure of whether will I offend anyone.

My scrawny body, together with that flatuating tummy, cellulite at my thighs, the flabby muscles that sag from my arms. SIGH. The sight of me just simply puts me off. Am I about to go into another dark phrase in my life?

Wonderful friends from all walks of life, now on their own road in life, leaving behing friendships and memories that all share, be it beautiful or just sadistic moments in the past.

Sometimes, I really regret not cherishing the scant ties that bind me and my "brothers" in NCC. Despite us being separated in our own cliques, that unity, is just a distant memory. The encouragement, the cheer-ups, the jags and bashings - all gone.

BGR has already taken a close one away from me. What am I gonna do next? Trying to integrate into cliques that I feel estrangled from? Trying to be a mute, afraid of voicing out my thoughts to others? What now?